My Musings

Yeah, I have been slacking a lot on this goal. I’ve come to realize how intensive a lot of my goals are. But today is Anti-Procrastination day on my Schedule, so here I am.

The last couple days have been excellent. I have been following my schedule very well. This has really helped make a difference in my evening.

The end of last week was great. I took great lengths to get myself out of debt and will be debt free this month.

The weekend was good too. It was a 3 day weekend and the 4th of July. Loved the fact that I got to eat delicious vegan food from Hungry Tiger Too… TWO days in a row.

I’m losing weight and trimming up.

So much to be happy about right now. I’m still so happy with my new place too.

Monday ~ Started my new ‘eating’ plan. Got this meal planner thing from Winsor Pilates. It’s a booklet with meal ideas and the basic structure of building a complete days worth of meals and snacks.

So… I started this on Monday and am happy to report it is going wonderfully. I’m eating good portion sizes, complete meals and eating 5 times a day! It’s great.

Tuesday ~ Noticed something subtle but it made me smile. So when I get home from work, I work out for about 25-35 minutes every day now. So I was logged into chat and put an away message that said, “Werkin 0uT”.. So later, Chris and I are chatting and I ask how he’s doing.. He tells me that he ran for a while. grins Isn’t that cute? I can’t totally assume he meant that for my benefit, but seeing that he’s a man of few words, he tends to choose them carefully. grin Hmm.. got my wheels turning.

Oh also.. On my walk back to work, there were these two twin black cats that looked completely identical. They were slim short haired, with green golden eyes. Each one got on either side of me and started meowing at me and walking with me a few steps. :) It was kind of rad.. I’m a cat person. lol

I seriously didn’t realize that I have not written in here this long..

Last week:

Happy about my kitchen.
Happy about accomplishing some rather stressful things.

Happy about the fact that I got a surprise visit from Chris on Saturday.. wooooooo!

Happy about seeing Transformers 2.

Happy about having deliciously healthy food in the house that stops me from eating crappy stuff! :D

Was wonderful. I love walking to work and walking home. It’s a beautiful walk. There’s an adorable fluffy cat that hang out along the sidewalk and get a couple of pets.

I loved coming into my new apartment and knowing I could just be myself. No tension. No worry. Yay!

Now that I have full control over my abode, it’s getting SO much easier to follow my schedule and routines. I’m already seeing a huge difference.

One huge project I’m undertaking now is setting up a meal planner in my Google Calendar so I can shop more efficiently and have wonderful homecooked meals. It will save loads of money.

:D :D :D

Since I have gone over a week without mentioning what has made me happy, I’m going to do a quick summary…

Essentially what I’m most happy about is the fact that Andrew and I accomplished so much. We got all of our stuff out of the old place and now we’re in the new place.

The new place rocks. We have cable again. The place is already getting cozy. It’s private. It’s spacious. I have a real bathroom again, with bright lights so I can actually do a good job on my hair and make-up.

Best thing of all.. no more effed up housemate and no more disgusting household to sift through. Independence is back. Life feels awesome again. There’s still a little bit of fear like those moments when you’re on your bike and you’re not sure if you’ve totally got it or if you might slip and fall, but it’s still a great feeling.

SO SO HAPPY. :D

Now that I have a place to care for and make sure is cozy and inviting, I am ready to really follow through with my routines better.

:) Going to dust off the virtual schedule calendar and start following it better. Yay!

This coming weekend will be the official move-in date! Following my initial schedule won’t be smooth right off the bat, but it will be a gazillion times easier to do now that I have my own place with a kitchen and everything! Wooo! So much easier to clean up dishes and random stuff. I am so thrilled.

So the schedule will be back in the limelight soon! With exercising added in for good measure.

Friday ~ Happily survived a bizarre ride home. Got to spend time alone. Enjoyed it.

Saturday ~ Indulged in my guilty pleasure of The Jam. So good. Saw Matt, one of guys who works there. He’s really cool. Enjoyed delicious coffee, cleaned up some around the ‘residence’.

Sunday ~ Discovered the sock shop! Wooo! Relaxed. Watched dumb movies and vegged out.

Monday ~ I’m happy that there is a rental possibility. It looks hopeful and is in a good location.

May wound up being a much better month over all, compared to April. The beginning of May was still pretty chilly. Morning’s still required a scarf with a couple of slim hoodies for the bike ride to work. There was even one morning that was 39 degrees out. I remember thinking how weird that was.

Anyway, May spun some interesting new twists into my life. One late Friday night, and eventually Saturday morning, we chatted for a good while. The end of the conversation ended with him asking me if we would hang out every single day together, if he came back to Portland.

May began to warm up, during the middle of the month, and I was really starting to tackle my body. I visited Dad for Memorial Day weekend, which included bringing back some workout videos from last year. They were still in his storage. So toward the end I revved up the work out level big time.

Also the weekend of visiting Dad, he showed me this new clock that he bought. It’s pretty extravagant, plays different tunes at every hour. We spent some good quality time together. That weekend, Chris hinted he was on his way here.

The month wrapped up with warm weather and a 30 day notice to leave, from the housemate. I wound up with a huge question mark followed by an exclamaition point on the last day of the month.

I swear, I need a camera phone. Just something that can document these things. It’s really fun to write about, but it would so help to have a snap shot!

Anyway.. there was a possy of people who all looked like they were together, and looked like they were part of a circus act. One guy in particular was on these insanely high stilts and had super long rad looking pants. He was dressed in black with gold trimming, fitted circus-y suit with a red top hat type thing.

It was fascinating and bizarre.. Just love it.

I have a feeling that June is going to be chock full of new things! So many changes happening during this month.

So in this particular instance, I found this awesome sock shop here in Portland. They have all kinds of sexy stockings and socks. It was like shopping at a candy store.

www.sockdreams.com

I got a couple of much needed knee highs, over the knee highs and these hot fishnets. :) :) :)

Tuesday ~ Work day got much better.. was able to knock out stuff that was bothering me.

Wednesday ~ AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just figured it out.. Chris will be here either tomorrow or Saturday…...... eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekk! So hyper!!!!

I have to look out for opportunities now because life is getting nothing short of crazy! I have to leave where I live by the first of July… My job is going to shift cuz my co-worker is moving on.. Not sure what’s going to happen with C in the picture again.. wow.. wow…wow… must keep looking.. I’m looking every day. Trying to think about stuff and approach things differently.

Saturday ~ Tried this new delicious scramble at the Jam. Curry Tofu Scramble. It sounds really weird, especially with toast and hashbrowns.. but people, it worked.. and was great. Also met the pink haired girlfriend of one of the workers there. Good to connect and make more friends.

Sunday ~ Got the confirmation.. He’s on his way here! Yeehaw!!! I’ve got a couple weeks to get ready. Woooo.

Monday ~ Slept well throughout the night. Very sound, very relaxed.

I had two facials done this week. One on Wednesday and the other today.. They both involved extractions of acne, some lovely enzyme cocoa mask that smelled like Cocoa Puffs, and massage. Both involved a bit of pain but it was totally worth it. I love how nice my skin looks right now. It’s radiant, looks very healthy and so much better. :)

Tuesday ~ Feeling pretty giddy bout C.

Wednesday ~ Got a deep cleansing facial that made my face wonderfully better and radiant. Worked out.

Thursday ~ Enjoyed delicious vegan sub-sandwhich at Laurelhurst Park.. quite lovely really.

Friday ~ Yet again, another facial and it was so nice. My face looks really good now.. had a cute guy working on me too. Oh.. also.. C hasn’t been online at all and I’m beginning to wonder if he’s on his way out here.. hmmm..

Completed Goal – Get eye exam and contacts – Did this last Saturday. My eyes thank me for it.

1. schedule my life and follow that schedule – On the backburner. Everything is shakey right now.. so a steady schedule is difficult to follow.

2. Complete four “things” a month – I think I’ll do quite well.. will be a miracle if I can be disciplined enough to finish my blanket though.

3. Take flax seed oil every day – Almost every day.. Memorial Day weekend messed up the flow, but getting back on it.

4. Take at least one photograph every week. – Nope.. not doing.

5. Buy a new bike – No plans for a new purchase.

6. Save money – Money is going towards being debt free.

7. Create a budget, and stick with it – Ummm… need to really do the budgeting part… especially with everything changing.

8. get out of debt – By the end of July.

9. Become Financially Independent – I wish..

10. buy my own house – I wish wish… :)

11. Make a living with my creativity – Need to amp up creativity and production.

12. make my business successful – Will focus more on the business hopefully over the summer.

13. build a reputation based on my work – Yeah baby.. but not now.

14. knit or crochet a blanket – SO need to finish this puppy!

15. Bring my own bags to the supermarket – 50% good.

16. recycle everything – Most of the time I’m recycling or reusing.

17. List some things everyday that made me happy, for an entire year – Going steadily.

18. sincerely compliment someone at least once a day – Oooo.. ouch..

19. make more effort to make friends – I feel like my relationships are growing actually.. so perhaps it’s more of a keeping friendships stronger thing.. but I still do more..

20. have conversations late into the night with fascinating people – I have a feeling this will be happening soon… I think C is going to be in Portland relatively soon.

21. not be afraid to speak up when i have an answer/idea/opinion – I’m definitely doing this more.. but having a difficult time expressing myself to my dad.

22. Keep a look out for opportunities – Kinda have to now.

23. Write a Summary about each Month – April is done.. May soon to come.

24. Do something new every month – Well.. it’s not brand new but I did go visit Dad, which is a new thing in a really long time.

25. visit the ocean once a month – Psshh..

26. Have a totally different life by this time next year – I have a feeling this will definitely be the case.

27. Find that perfect town to live in/by and move there – You know, everything is up in the air right now.. who knows.

28. have my own garden – Would rock, but can’t forsee one this year.

29. become a burlesque dancer – Um.. still considering.

• 30. have better skin* – Got a facial yesterday.. getting another tomorrow.

31. get a brazilian bikini wax – Yeah.. might need to do this sooner than initially expected…..

32. age gracefully – _{twirls around like a vintage starlet}

33. astral project – Nope.

34. Continue to work on my Book of Shadows – _laughs

35. Start a journal documenting my favorite quotes from books, songs, films, friends, etc. – _cries

36. Write a letter to myself that I’ll open in 5 years – Need to write that before 5 years goes by.

37. Discover my Heritage – Back burner baby.

38. Review Goals Bi-Weekly – I am! I am!

39. Keep track of Portland being weird – Trying! Updated this week.

Friday ~ Enjoyed my Friday.. it was relaxing after I got home from work.

Saturday ~ Got my new contacts and drove down to see my Dad!

Sunday ~ Spent quality time with Dad, saw my black kitty cat, enjoyed the warm day, and had another interesting convo with C.. he said he made a decision and would enlighten me on it later in the week…. heh..

Monday ~ Well, had the day off so that made me quite happy. Enjoyed rocking out to Depeche Mode while on my drive back to Portland. For once, in a really long time, felt like I could connect with the ‘love’ songs..